INSOMNIA REPORT 2:30 amI don’t know if these kinds of thought processes ever happen to anyone else, but they happen to me.
Tonight, as I lay in bed staring at the ceiling, the events of the day, and even events from previous days, started replaying in my mind. Some thoughts are random like, I wish I knew that name of that cool song I heard today, or the topics can be real heavy weights.
Like, how much more abuse can my body take from all these treatments?What happens then?
After about 30 minutes of this fruitless thinking I remembered that it isn’t my job to worry about tomorrow.
I went and read Matthew 6:25-34 and re-reminded myself that as a child of God, He will take care of me. God knows what I need before I (or we) even ask. The events of my life are in His hands.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying that we should not ask Him for help when we run into trouble, just that we have to trust His answers.
So, as my insomnia became dulled by the stress of treatment, I got on my hands and knees. I pressed my face into the floor and I thanked God for all the blessings He has given. I thanked Him for all the people who have reached out to me and my family, and I thanked Him in advance for healing me and giving me enough health that I can go home soon.
To everyone that has even as much as said a kind word to me and my family – may God richly bless you.
Frank
later today:
Todays visit to the hospital was a good one. Everything went as planned -good lab values and no reactions to the medications. I was such a good boy that I didn't even need any platlets.
If I can produce the same results tomorrow we will be able to start talking (thinking) about coming home. Wow, it seems so wild to think this is almost over.
Here's to seeing everyone soon! Frank
5 comments:
In the Psalms, David cried out to God "from the depths"...and after crying, praised His Name! You and David have bonded!!! This time, is not in vain. God will use it for His glory! I love you and rejoice with you as we accept His healing in His time. Big Bear Hugs, Nana
--Sandy
Hey Bud, I need you for Beast feast October 13th. Greg is giving me his cooker to use so we can feed about 100 people. Zack made it today and I know you are glad. I Love You and pray for you daily. I'm proud of you ! Good Luck !
--Lute
Frank: You are being used right now to proclaim the goodness of God! I have had those same sleepless nights. I pray that I can always exhibit the faith that shines in you. Ps. 30:15 "Trust me in your times of trouble & I will rescue you and you will give me glory."
--Margaret Martin
Keep hangin' in there Frank and Peggy and kiddos. We're cheering for ya here on Rockytop.
--Littmans
Great news. We are cheering for you here in Tiger Land also. See you soon!
--Kevin Kent
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