Monday, April 6, 2009

BUT GOD

Frank and I have been saying everyday that we need to update the website, and have gone back and forth about who will do it. We’ve been busy (that’s our story and we’re sticking to it), but behind the excuse, the truth is, sometimes it’s hard to sit down and write what’s going on.

The last entry talked about Frank getting set up for radiation. After seeing Dr. Weir the next Wednesday, the plan changed a bit. Frank is not going to get radiation right now. His pain has increased with respect to intensity, and there are also a few new areas of concern. But I am so happy that the medicine is still giving him the relief he needs. With a tweak here and there, he’s comfortable most of the time. Frank wants to remain out of the hospital setting as much as possible and there was a chance our insurance was going to make us go to Little Rock for further radiation (long story) so he decided to hold off for now. It’s been a week and he says he’s really happy with that decision.


His blood counts were really low again Wed. With a platelet count of 3, the doctor is concerned that Frank may not be making platelets anymore. We’re now set up with a standing order on Mon/Thurs for labs and transfusions if needed… which is where we are now.


So many times, I am asked, “How are you doing?” I answer with the specifics… details like I’ve typed today. But sometimes, with a gentle touch, or a change of voice inflection, I get, “Yes, but how are you doing?” Humm, I don’t know exactly. I wish I could hold myself and the family up to a chart and check it out – like when you check the chemicals in the pool. That would nice wouldn’t it? Oh… I see that I’m a little low on peace today, and my fear is high. It’s seems silly, I know.


“I love the Lord, because He listens to my prayers for help, He paid attention to me, so I will call to Him for help as long as I live.” Psalm 116:1-2


In respect to this website, it seems to have gotten harder to approach the computer. Frank and I have always done this together – regardless of who’s typing, we read each others entries and it’s a joint effort in the end. That’s still true. But we both admitted that sometimes we secretly wish the other would update.


I think it’s because since the beginning of the year, things have been different. There’s been a different outlook, change of approach, a “new normal” to adjust to. It has been an adjustment, but God……


BUT GOD. Those words have been in on my heart for days now. It doesn’t matter what the day brings, what my fears are, what the prognosis is, or what challenges our “new normal” brings. God is the same today as he was yesterday, and He will provide all we need to face each day – for Frank, for me and he kids, for our loved ones… and for you.


“We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure.” Heb 6:19


Well, great news! As I type this entry from the hospital, the nurse just came in to tell us Frank’s counts were high enough to not need a transfusion today! Platelets 26 and Hct 29. This means he made some platelets on his own. Praise the Lord! What a great start to the week.


This picture is from the Chris Tomlin concert last Tuesday at the Fed Ex Forum. Thank you Darrin, for making it happen. We had such a great time. Chris Tomlin has great music, so worshipful, and it was a good show.

We say it all the time, but it’s never enough from our vantage point: THANK YOU for your prayers, generosity, friendship, love and concern for our family. Every day we realize how very blessed we are. Peg and Frank

10 comments:

Barbara & Scott Cunningham said...

Thank you so much for posting an
update! As hard as it is, your friends & family thank you and appreciate any little tidbit of information. We love you and hug through the computer!

Anonymous said...

So glad to get the update. We continue to pray for you often. So many people are praying for your family. God Bless you all! Margaret Martin

Sarah Miles said...

prayers and prayers and prayers coming your way. mostly for peace for each day! please let us know if there's anything we can do.
~ Sarah (Wilson) Miles

carroll said...

Peggy & Frank - thanks for sharing the update. We want you to know that you guys are in our prayers each day.
The Andres

John David said...

Praise the Lord for the good news! Stac and I are always so encouraged by your faith and witness! We had a great doctors appointment too last week we got to hear the babies strong heart beat so we are excited and know the Lord is in control of this babies growth and development!
Love you guys and stay strong!
your friends in christ,
John David n Stacy

David Morris said...

Love Y'all. Have a great Easter. He is risen. He is risen indeed!

robin davis said...

Thanks so much for the update. Knowing how hard it is for you to do makes it even more precious to those of us who are checking in every day. I love what you wrote today, and on top of that, I am so happy Frank had a good beginning of the week! Yay for platelets!
Have a blessed Easter!

Anonymous said...

Go platelets Go! Thank you for updating and letting everyone know "where you are" and specifically how we can pray!
Love you All!
Lou & Family

Anonymous said...

Thank you for the update & the beautiful way you share. God IS Good and just as you said He remains the same. Prayers to you all for a beautiful Easter.
Vicki

Anonymous said...

Thank you for the update!! I have been wondering how things were going. I pray for your family daily and think about yall all the time. I know that your faith in the Lord will get you and your family through this struggle. Matthew 21:22 And in all things whatsoever you shall ask in prayer, believing, then you shall receive. Lisa Wright